I have checked my IA application this afternoon. And yes, as expected, I was rejected by the company I applied to. I was feeling quite numb the whole day. Although I know it was expected and I shouldnt feel so terrible about it, I still cant help being upset and disappointed. Thanks everyone for their encouragement and comfort. But it makes me feel worse and end up crying. Silly me... recalled the time when i got an A2 for my Prelim Chemistry paper in sec school, I cried for the entire day and I must have looked damn ugly crying in front of my friends.

Since young, I always fear rejection. Hate rejection. I constantly remind myself to take rejection and failures in my stride but sometime I simply cant do it. I have learnt to take things a lot easier but now I cant do it. The application and the chance for interview is very important. Getting an opportunity for interview is as good as getting half of the battle won but well... it doesnt matter to me anymore. It's very tough for me to accept the fact I was rejected since I was so determined to get there. I know I shouldnt be so disheartened since it is still not the end. Remain hopeful and may some bloody miracle happen. Give me time and I will soon forget about these disappointments.