Urgh! I really cant stand it anymore. It's such an unbearable sight to see our fruits of labour going into the wrong hands. Do I pay $140 to let myself suffer under such incompetent leadership and get myself angry over all their nonsense? It's really tiring and all I want now is a good break especially the period before I go off for my IA. The senior camp really makes my blood boiled. Imagine you overheard your boss the CP says that she doesnt know what's going on for the game. Wow. Fantastic sia~! And she doesnt rise any doubts with the many updates and proposals I send her constantly before the senior camp. She doesnt know that the extra C in front of the letter P (programmer) means that she has the responsibilty to know what going on for all her events and not happily putting the whole responsiblity to the ACP in charge. Woah. There she complained that we did not have much respect for her but hasnt she still learnt that respect has to be earned? How can she expect to win our respect like this? When I saw her msn nick " You think be CP so easy meh? then u be lor.." wow.. trying to sound very victimized. Unfortunately by saying that, sadly to say she still hasnt prove her worth to us anyway. In fact, I was wondering how she feel that a CP should be. Since she has taken up the post of CP, she should happily accept the challenge and dont complain that "being CP is not easy". Damn F***ing pissed off.

Well, I dont feel any bloody excitement about the camp no more. Basically I am just going there to do what I am supposed to do. Dragging myself to go meetings at times. I wasnt happy at all. My bf told me before to quit the camp since I wasnt happy working with the main comm. (I was happy working with my subcomm though.=) aiyah. since we all zi ji ren. Haha!) But it's the responsibility thing that holds me back from quitting. Yeah.. quitting seems like an easier way out of these shit. But easier said than done. I cannot imagine what if i am stuck in this kind of sticky situation when I move on to the working society. A camp is just like a mini company, bound to have politics. I guess I just have to live with it and fight for my rights constantly.

The "higher authorities" of the camp must be wondering why are we always making so much noise almost about everything. How do they expect us to accept everything they said especially when they cant convince us to accept whatever they said? Why is it that nobody other than us dares to make the protest or are they really that accepting? Or is it that our expectations for the "higher authorities" are much higher than others because we were once the "higher authorities" and we are so-called "experienced" and they failed to meet up our expectations? Perhaps the others who doesnt complain simply bochap and we care too much about whats going on. Unfortunate for them, we all have a mind of our own instead of going "ok ok orh ok". (Sound like one person... hohoho) Excuse me, if they think we are apathetic, they are very wrong.

Now I feel like an opposition in the main comm while the rest are the PAP. Great resistance but I still have to hang on. I may have mind a lot how the rest in the main comm looks at me but I cant let them bring me down. I have to keep on fighting till the end of camp. Yeah.. expected to make a few more enemies out there but what to do? Prove to them and the juniors that we are a competent lot rather than the complaining lot who does nothing.